Veritas

Although this post is titled, “Truth,” its contents are going to deal with its opposite: the Ultimate Illusion. I hope to keep the Truth sacred and unspoken by this attempt to provide an accurate description of Falsehood below.

First, Soror N.O.’s lessons from Liber E vel Exercitiorum sub figura IX:

  • Part I: Record meticulously and don’t lie to yourself.

  • Part II: The harder one tries, the more out of sync the results. Also; that you don’t know what the hell is happening but the more you do it, the more variables in the operation are known (i.e. superstitions are being created, and thus, useful to you). Siddhis appear when these variables are in the right condition.

  • Part III: Sheer mental willpower dies in the ass of the person who fails to unite body with mind (i.e. you’re better off trying to sleep through the discomfort than to treat it like the last kilometer in a marathon). To absorb energy is to conserve that which is already present in the body.

  • Part IV: The anticipation of the count decreases your capacity for breathing, so breathe first, count second.

  • Part V: Tighten the sphere of thought gradually so that a ten random thoughts become a few and by that time, you realize that those few thoughts can be eliminated (or altered) as one.

  • Part VI: There is a difference between what you can override your body to do with the mind (and vice versa) and that which is natural to your body.

  • Part VII: (A Course of Reading)

These lessons are relevant because one learns the effect of the consciousness in processes of thought, emotion, and body; and therefore, one learns how to not interfere in them. A special thing happens with siddhis, or “supernatural/psychical feats,” like predicting the future, moving things with your mind, etc: the experience of them leads to the awareness of the One Moment through the overlapping of things like time — past, present, future all in One.

Because this ties into a few more things like free will and determinism, here is an excerpt from The Brazen Serpent, for the Path of Lamed:

By now, there should be a rather concrete understanding of how the world works according to the magician’s influence on it, and how it influences himself – even if this understanding is not explicitly bound by language in his mind. In a nutshell, it can be summed up like this: Good work leads to more work. When one ascends a plane of consciousness, there are more difficult and more subtle tasks, both in the higher planes and the lower. Theurgy is all about expanding both the heights and depths of the planes in which one travels, eventually purifying them thoroughly enough to bridge them all together. And yet, it may seem in one perspective that this leads the individual nowhere, and certainly not closer to Divinity – but in a more encompassing perspective, one sees that the path to Divinity is not in a straight one-way elevation up the Tree, but rather is embedded in the Circle of the Infinite which surrounds all of manifestation. By performing the Great Work, the Great Work performs “us.” The Work creates in the individual more relations that he is to grasp and understand, therefore making these relations automatic in his processing and in turn, make him more sensitive to his own missteps as he refines his being. The individual becomes stronger in his flexibility and adaptation yet with each task accomplished, his senses become more sensitive and therefore more prone to more work. The closer one gets to performing True Will, the more “free will”, yet less “free will” one gets.

What is “free will?” The mundane kind of conception of free will is actually of the Illusion of free will. E.g. all is determined ahead of time, and because one cannot consciously relate every factor and variable affecting his every move, there is this feeling like the “I” really is making things happen. However, by taking into account not just a linear, two-dimensional understanding of existence and learn to perceive in the higher planes, there lies a few curious observations:

1. The linear timeline of one’s physical existence in the world of Assiah from birth to death is determined, because we have only learned to see the past.

2. When one’s consciousness rises from Assiah to Yetzirah, we are able to see a little ahead of the linear timeline called life, either through divination, direct feats of psychism, the acquisition of siddhis, etc – giving one a chance to change an event that was “prescribed.” By refining the senses to pick up on these chances, and learning to follow them, one breaks through to Briah.

3. As one reaches Briatic consciousness, we not only see a little ahead of our timeline, but begin to witness the forces which create the timeline. The individual lives in conjunction with these forces, establishing the link between his consciousness and the timeline as a whole.

4. At the level of Atziluth, viewing the entire timeline of our mundane existence, one becomes the forces which inform Briah, which propels him to take action in Yetzirah, which changes the course as it appears in Assiah.

In conclusion, the linear timeline of one’s physical existence in Assiah is absolutely determined, but it is determined by the individual himself, assimilating both concepts of determinism and free will. In Atziluth, the entire timeline appears as a single moment. In Assiah, the individual places themselves at a point somewhere on the timeline, unaware of what the future holds. Spirit always firstly “moves downwards” into manifestation because manifestation is simply the grossest form of spirit. How else can we attempt K&C with the HGA, seeing as how the HGA is but our higher selves? As the spirit within learns (or, more accurately, remembers) how to rise back up, the lower planes are automatically affected, therefore leaving us with the duty of assimilation above and below.

The True Will is thus both determined by its equations, and free because those equation are simply its own name, spelt out fully. His sense of being under bondage comes from his inability to read it; his sense that evil exists to thwart him arises when he begins to learn to read, reads wrong, and is obstinate that his error is an improvement.

(Book 4)

To “see into the future” is to prove a certain degree of synchronicity, but more importantly, it shows that the Truth is Maya and that we all share it. The siddhis show us the simulation of the One as all these things and that this is what we call “reality.”

So what is “reality”?

Now, returning briefly to Liber E: personally and through the discipline of meditation, I know it takes me approximately 46 minutes for any kind of emotion (whether it is anger, excitement, anxiety, etc.) to naturally cycle out of my consciousness. The thought remains if not changed but the feeling itself wanes regardless of what I was thinking. What that means is that whatever I thought was really worth starting a fist fight with someone twice my size for, will fade by the time I’ve been pulverized and have been left lying on the floor.

This also applies to less dramatic but still damaging situations like choosing to insult someone instead of staying quiet.

The bottom line is that we must attempt to treat others as if they are to die tomorrow.

The convergence of time not only means that to be rude to someone is being rude to yourself but to fall prey to the Ultimate Illusion of reality, and the nature of that reality, being Separation.

And when we must shun someone away, we should do it solely with the intention of directing them towards a path more suitable to their Will, and not out of our own fear, hatred, jealousy, or anger.

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Selflessness & the Drive of Self

Man develops his image of himself by imagining how Divinity (first, in the form of his Mother) wishes him to be so that he may return (and be desired by the Mother). In this first act of man’s creation, three concepts must be in his nature, that is, of Divine nature; Imagination – construction of ideas through ideas, Symbolism/Language – the formulation of ideas themselves, and Self/Consciousness – the awareness of these processes (which leads him to attribute these processes to his own being).

 
He seeks IT/Divinity/Mother because he realizes that there is something outside of him that he needs, that can not be freely taken; the metaphor often given is that of the mother’s breast. If man was complete in all that he needed, he would be Conscious/United Divinity. Instead, he is conscious only of his humanity, and must Work to be conscious of his Divinity. This is the same Fall within Creation itself, happening as each man becomes conscious of his consciousness; every man being a “split subject” due to the gap in his mind between his consciousness and the unconscious. His drive to unite with his Mother/Divinity itself is synonymous with seeking to be conscious of his unconscious. This essential drive is the same with all man, manifested through forms that are more or less obvious, depending upon the amount of transitions (and the success/failures thereof) that each individual has had to make (due to environmental circumstances).

 
The psychological metaphor continues with the child, witnessing his father receiving the love he seeks from the Mother, aiming to become his father – but can never get close enough due to two things: Castration fear, which occurs when there is a threat to man’s self-concept of himself (in this case, being too similar to his father, or recognizing that he will never succeed), and the father’s Law, which bans incest with the mother and provides the child with his first ethical code of “good” and “evil.” The Mother, whom is fulfilled as Mother once she bears a child, does not “need” him anymore; she may desire him, but this is an excess of need in which there is no satisfaction. Only in parting with the child may she find joy.

 
Usually, the child grows to incorporate society’s laws and ethics into his Law and seeks more or less obvious replacements of affection from his Mother. This continues throughout adulthood, but the pattern remains the same. The individual adapts his self-concept (which includes both the influence from his Law and his drive for acknowledgment/affection) accordingly as situations change.

 
Notice how the father’s Law has created such a strong repulsion in our society to the idea of incest, even with people that don’t concern us, and even if their relations are consensual. We are perceiving ourselves in their situations through the eyes of our own biased ethical codes.

 
It is an instinctual disgust reaction for every individual to think sexually of their own parents for physical, evolutionary reasons – but this is NOT to be confused with the psychological “incestuous” drive to replace our parents with our partners (and ourselves) which is absolutely natural and should not bring shame. Anyone who believes otherwise will be sorely disappointed once they realize that life is centered around these concepts and that they can only keep replacing the language with which these concepts are described. Sexuality in the New Aeon should be accepting of consensual roleplay regarding parental figures and children; the acknowledgement of the origin of this taboo and the exploration of it is progress to understanding ourselves and of Divinity.

 
The separation in man’s consciousness bringing forth his self-concept/ego, is the key to uniting with Divinity. Both the process of it coming into being, and the being itself is the cycle of Creation; man’s ego is as man is to God. The man who rids of his ego for any period of time is not “knowing God” but becomes God’s Knowing. God Knowing Himself; “God is God only insofar as he knows himself; but in addition his self-knowledge is the self-knowledge that he has as man; and the knowledge that he has of himself as God.” It is in these moments (gnosis) in between Creating a new self-concept/ego and having a previously constructed one “die” that God is God – with every change we make to our self-concept, we are God. “The eye with which God sees me is the eye with which I see Him; my eye and His eye are one and the same. In righteousness I am weighed in God and He in me. If God did not exist nor would I; if I did not exist, nor would He.” This means, in a man without a self-concept/ego, there exists neither ego (obviously) nor “man” – for the concept of this man as a man is included in his ego.

 
The Great Work is creating a space for the individual (God) to Know Himself, so that the individual may then align his self-concept to his unconscious, attaining joy. Joy is not a fixed destination, but the result of continually acting upon drives which leads us to break our consciousness/self-concept. The drives of man are only Qliphotic in nature when they are not balanced, which lead to desire. Desires are drives that have been bound in forms/ideas, further removed from the unconscious and more elaborate due to the mind’s use of language in communicating them to oneself. Both drives and desires arise from an excess of need/demand; that which we “need” is merely that which can be satisfied. By expressing our need in language, it becomes a demand. The greatest desire of every individual is for another to acknowledge their desire; the Mother to imagine what she could be/do to make her son happy. What the magician is doing when he re-creates his self-concept, is acknowledging his own desires, ridding of the excess (therefore “eliminating” desire/transforming it into need), and fixing his Law in order to fulfill his needs.

 
True Will, therefore, is a drive within our unconscious minds with many forms, the form which surfaces depending upon each individual, and receives a ranking of necessity based on past experiences (and neuroses). Once achieved, one’s True Will “changes” to a form more directly related to the drive in the unconscious.

 
In conclusion, the True Will of every man is ultimately to unite his consciousness with his own unconscious mind; the Great Work itself that is eternal – and every man having the burden/blessing of a divided consciousness knowingly or unknowingly seeks to fill this gap, for God’s own existence.

XIII

0. The ends justify the means, but the ends have no ends! The means justify the ends, but the ends don’t exist anymore.

I. Both the ends and the means justify the ends; every means being an end in itself.

II. For the assimilation of theurgy & thaumaturgy, just like the ends and the means, the practitioner must perform every act of thaumaturgy for the sake of theurgy.

III. The nature of theurgy expediates and burns the karma of the practitioner, from which thaumaturgy are his tools and in union with natural forces; he himself is a vector of the macrocosmic will while simultaneously affecting the macrocosmic will from his vector as microcosmic will.

IV. The theurgist, whose microcosmic capacity in his limited lifetime and physical manifestation of macrocosmic will is restricted to his lifetime and physical manifestation of macrocosmic will, is prone to an early physical death.

  1. His macrocosmic work as this restricted manifestation has a limit which propels his being (which has been solve-d and coagula-ed in the form of the white lion and red eagle; his sulfur = his mercury; his soul/spirit has actually reached Nirvana/Moksha and it is his salt which must now transmute) to reincarnate/physically die.
  2. His microcosmic work/the imprint of his being is reincarnated and scattered among the universe in order to progress the Aeon, and aid the macrocosmic will.
  3. What happens to his body (salt) needs no further clarification.

V. Enlightened theurgists, therefore both reincarnate and reach Nirvana; the theurgist’s microcosmic will (which is not separated from his soul/spirit), has reached peace in the macrocosmic will – but part of the macrocosmic will is for the reincarnation of microcosmic wills.

VI. To avoid an early physical death as a theurgist, there are two options – doing magick really slowly or retire in magick and utilize prayer.

VII. Prayer is the disconnecting and surrendering of the microcosmic will entirely as a part for the microcosmic will. He is throned in the chariot rather than conducting it, because the whole system of progression is perfectly balanced. (As opposed to magick being the interplay between microcosmic and macrocosmic will; it is a rhythm of active/passive for both – conducting and riding).

VIII. Time stops during prayer; time speeds up with magick. Magi who retire to seemingly exoteric religions are not doing so for the idea of salvation, but for equilibration of micro/macrocosmic will.

IX. These magi usually withdraw from their “normal lives” and seem to have abandoned the Great Work entirely – when in fact they have become the Word/universal will, unspoken and secret.

X. His fate is now incalculable; luck is the remnant of design and all that he can witness is the design.

XI. This is the part where Faust chases and sleeps with Gretchen; his moment of transcendence that seals over his fate to Mephistopheles. In the movie Lesson Faust, this is the part where Faust seduces and sleeps with the life-sized puppet of Helen of Troy, before he finds out it was Mephisto in disguise. The macrocosmic seed/Word has been spoken, impregnating the Scarlet Woman with the Will of the Aeon. The magus’s fate is sealed once more in the promulgation of his microcosmic will, and the clock resumes ticking.

XII. Faust’s newly acquired despair & the infanticide of their child by Gretchen; in the movie being the drowning of the Court because they didn’t like his magick powers.

XIII. The magus/theurgist/practitioner dies for the last time, his clock having run out.

Thaumaturgy & Theurgy


All magick performed intently brings forth change; the results of thaumaturgical workings usually either aiding in confidence of oneself or skepticism towards the efficacy of magick. A balance must be sought between believing in oneself and having faith in magick, regardless of the history of one’s workings (fails or successes). To the ceremonial magickian, there is no difference between oneself and magick, and the success/failures of his thaumaturgy only aids in recognising and appreciating the forces of Being, which to some degree will always be unknowable to the practitioner.

“For pure will, unassuaged of purpose, delivered from the lust of result, is in every way perfect.”

By detaching one’s intentions for results, and accepting magick as just an exercise of one’s Will, the magickian always succeeds–he is closer to union with God by means of uniting his own forces within himself.

“That is to say, in order to perform his miracle, [the Magician] must call forth his own God in the Microcosm. That is united with the God of the Macrocosm by its likeness to it; and the Macrocosmic force then operates in the Universe without as the Magician has made it operate within himself; the miracle happens.”

Silence is a power because by the unintentional limitations of language, if one were to speak about his Work, he sets forth in his mind the idea that he is the cause of magick; the balance is shifted between Knowing and Understanding, and as a result, feeds his ego too much. Similarly, if he were to speak about his Work without attributing himself, he subconsciously becomes aware of the idea that perhaps he did not do anything, as it could have all been coincidence, and his faith in himself/magick is decreased.

There is nothing intrinsically wrong about speaking of magick–Silence is simply a way of preserving the authenticity of one’s Understandings. If among those with similar Understandings, there is no such consequence so long as the magickian keeps the balance of faith/confidence for himself.

It is true that performing Theurgy/Great Work is all one needs to be satisfied, however if one is already aware of and is working in alignment with his Will, all acts, even thaumaturgical workings, are the Great Work. Part of the Work is always keeping one’s ego under Will, and accepting responsibility for what one strives for.