The Image of God


My Love for God and God’s Love for Me springs from the Great Secret we share.
The Secret is: God and I will achieve Supreme Enlightenment at the same moment.

 

When the “I” searches for the “I” itself, it disappears.
The “I” is like Chokmah as the reflection of Kether. Binah represents Kether being aware of its own reflection, at which point the reflection is Understood as not another Kether, but as a reflection – and returns unto Kether. It is said that because Binah is “Infinite Goodness,” the Light which descends down beyond the Supernals into a Finite vessel shatters this vessel, creating Da’ath and the Qliphoth. Because Da’ath is not a true sephira, it only appears when Kether does not; in other words, when Da’at is constricted, the Light from the Supernals do not reach us. It is Knowledge from seeing a reflection and identifying the “I” with it and not the Origin of the image.

 
The only “thing” that the “I” can do is mirror the actions of the Origin which is True Will. We are all ideas (images in motion) of the One, but we interact with one another like we are all separate entities. Because we are all images of God, the images/ideas of the One includes the ability to think – the motion of the image. Hence, if we silence our thoughts, magick manifests perfectly because we are at all times mirroring the actions of the True Will – we just think ourselves away from simply being.

 
Thought is defined as “an idea produced by thinking or occuring suddenly in the mind.”
Through me, its unfailing Wisdom takes form in thought and word.

 
“The mind circles round and round a key idea – the ‘seed’ of the meditation – and the process bores a ‘well’ down through the layers of the concrete mind until (if persistently pursued) a breakthrough is made to the intuitional levels of consciousness.”

 
The “I” is no different; it is the idea/seed (of the One) which we continuously think around but cannot think of. It is from Hod, the Binah of the Microposopus, that the “I” is able to rationalize what “it is” based off of seeing images of “others,” but never itself.

 
If there is no other watching the “I,” it does not know what to be – it knows what it can be from the illusion of memory – (sensations which stir into motion a record that appears separate from the present), and it knows what it thinks it wants to be from the personal unconscious, where our thought patterns are habit calcified through the many years (a reinforced type of illusion of memory). These are the interferences which must be squashed in order to allow True Will to operate. The “I” never knows what it’s supposed to be until the ruach forges a link with the neshamah, which is informed by the chiah. The Supernals represent the (capital O) Other, whereas other people are actually images of this Other. We all practice (here mainly in the world of Yetzirah) figuring out what our True Will is through other people until the “I” is ready to behold the Supernals. When it is linked without obstruction to the yechidah, the “I” is One with True Will; other and Other are united.

Lux ex Tenebris

Comfort is not a substitute for faith. 

By “faith,” I mean knowledge of True Will; there is a tendency of the mind to separate “events which happen to us” with “events that we cause.” Without this disposition, we are unable to make sense of the world, but as we remember the nature of our true selves, we become aware of the appearance of separation itself. We are Will, and we do Will, and – “Every act that is not in definite course of that one orbit is erratic, an hindrance. Will must not be two, but one.” 

Trust is letting understanding show which colours to perceive, even with impure eyes. Even colours have natural complements of one another, and what is natural is merely consistent enough to rely on from experience. It is the acknowledgement of both the consistency and possibility of inconsistency in one’s own experience – and faith, being complete trust – is knowing this and being at peace with it. 

It is the ordeals of our own darkness which allow us to see a truth that what we once thought was faith or True Will, was merely comfort; fickle and expensive. Once the light is sought and seen, it does not leave us. We just have to remember it. Suffering becomes a reminder that we are only concealing it against ourselves, and that if we let it shine, it will.

The Unconscious Mind

THE UNCONSCIOUS MIND.

 

In my essay regarding the Drive of Self, I concluded – “the True Will of every man is ultimately to unite his consciousness with his own unconscious mind.” Here, I will aim to elaborate on the nature of the unconscious mind/personal unconscious and what this means in relation to the central tenets of Thelema. This essay will first begin with linear diagrams and a theory to how a singular individual’s unconscious mind functions in relation to his subconscious and consciousness, and show this model mirrored in the macrocosm’s collective unconscious, that which we call “reality,” and the present moment.

 
For quick & dirty reference to a previous post titled Flux & Stillness:

Flux&Stillness Diagram

The conscious mind/consciousness of the individual is, more or less, synchronized with the present moment. Our attention functions as a mirror reflecting the mind/microcosm and the universe/macrocosm. Nothing can be revealed to itself without opposition – without the context of either side, the self/ego cannot exist. By definition, the ego is the result of the separation of heaven and earth. Its utility lies in its ability to balance and affect both parts.

 
The unconscious mind/collective unconscious informs and creates the subconscious and reality, from which consciousness can alter the subconscious/reality by taking (or if you prefer, “remembering”) directly from the unconscious/collective unconscious. The subconscious tends to perform its tasks quickly, hence the appearance of time passing quickly when one is overcome with emotion, or letting the mind wander freely. Reality being both the seen and unseen patterns, memes, and sensory data appears to move quite slowly; the sun passing overhead, the seasons changing, the economy pulling itself above water, and so on. Hence the ego’s usual offense and seeking to influence the world we see, to speed it up, avoid boredom, and satisfy the subconscious mind. Even when we mean well, there are unforseen consequences because our conscious sight is so narrow.

 
Hence, the advice to keep one’s ego in check in order to do one’s True Will relies upon learning to expand one’s sight (seeing in LVX) to encompass rays from the unconscious mind (mirrored/mirroring the collective unconscious), the source of True Will.

 
The unconscious mind is comprised of three parts which influence each other. The first, Self – is awareness of these processes. The second, Imagination – is the reformation of ideas. The third, Symbolism – is the ideas themselves and the formation of them.

 
The nature of the collective unconscious is as follows; the first – Self defined through Law [LOVE]. The second – [LAW], being the ethics of the language. The third – language, to express the Law [WILL].

Love Under Will Diagram

The collective unconscious of the macrocosm:

 

  1. LOVE – Self defined through Law: awareness and equal appreciation of all things, the unity subject and object.
  2. LAW – the ethics of language: “ethics” here refer to the principles of the universe that guide language in order to express the need for all things to return to unity, and that they are united. These principles themselves are reformations of symbols and ideas that stem from the One. Love is the law –  the Law is the necessity of Love put forth through communication.
  3. WILL – language, to express the Law:  Language here is to mean the representation of all things as they are, including separation, no thing, contradictions, and that which is inconceivable by our minds. In order for language to exist, there must be an Other to comprehend. This Other is not “us,” per say, but our unconscious minds.

 
In the unconscious mind, this part is Symbolism – symbols have a language of their own, the language of WILL. This is the unknown factor of True Will we struggle to reason with and attempt to put into words. Will sometimes requires us to take “leaps of faith” – because we cannot yet understand the language of the Law, usually until after the “leap.” This discourse also gives rise to synchronicities of our being and the universe to help us strive ever to more.

 

Liber AL II:26. I am the secret Serpent coiled about to spring: in my coiling there is joy. If I lift my head, I and my Nuit are one. If I droop down mine head, and shoot forth venom, then is rapture of the earth, and I and the earth are one.
II:27. There is great danger in me; for who doth not understand these runes shall make a great miss. He shall fall into the pit called Because, and there he shall perish with the dogs of Reason.

 
The top half of the diagram is of the macrocosm/heaven, the bottom half being the microcosm/earth. The three parts of each half refer to the supernal triad Kether-Chokmah-Binah. I will leave the details of the sephiroth of the microprosopus/macroprosopus as they correspond to the rest of the diagram in another essay, but from above the Abyss lies the first emanation to be reflected into the next triad Tiphareth-Chesed-Geburah, and the Veil of Paroketh further reflecting down to Yesod-Netzach-Hod. That which is above is like that which is below.

 
When we begin the Great Work “in the interior of the earth,” we notice these mirrors more and more. We perceive reality mixed in with the contents of our subconscious minds. It takes mindfulness, and therefore internal reflection to realize the subtle differences. The conscious mind constantly constricts and allows aspects of reality based on what the subconscious desires. We train to separate the two in order to change.

 
In the microcosm, Love is under Will; Love is Self – the awareness of the processes in the triad. Law is Imagination – the reformation of ideas, and Will is Symbolism – the ideas themselves and the formation of them. It is commonly accepted that through Law “sprang four Rays or Emmanations,” these being Light, Life, Love, and Liberty which correspond to the points of the pentagram, powers of the sphinx, elements, kerubs, etc. These are examples of the “reformation of ideas,” as there were four rays and not none. “Rays,” “four,” “existence of,” etc. are all ideas residing in the unconscious mind, a reflection of the language that the universe uses to aid us in understanding it. Will is the vector which binds the properties of each ray so that they may be rays, and because that which is done for the sake of itself IS itself, the individual whom does his Will is his Will. Love is all matter; and all matter is the motion of light. It is literally everything and everywhere.
“…this Love is the force that uniteth things diverse, for the contemplation in Light of
their Oneness.” Liber 150.

time vs eternity diagram

In summary,

 
DO WHAT THOU WILT SHALL BE THE WHOLE OF THE LAW – The individual must listen to the language of his unconscious mind expressed through symbolism, i.e. the Voice of the Silence. In order to listen to the Silence, he must train all his faculties to pick up, filter, rearrange, prioritize, transmute, and align the aspects of his mind with that of the universe.

 
LOVE IS THE LAW – The message/ends and the means/acts of communicating the message are one and the same. This is the creation cycle of the breath-in (compressing everything by dividing an area into parts and focusing both to a point) and breath-out (where their union releases their compression and they expand to the area from which they began.)

 
LOVE UNDER WILL – From awareness of unity comes the Will to unite. Love powers Will, and we become aware of unity when we listen to and follow Will.

Selflessness & the Drive of Self

Man develops his image of himself by imagining how Divinity (first, in the form of his Mother) wishes him to be so that he may return (and be desired by the Mother). In this first act of man’s creation, three concepts must be in his nature, that is, of Divine nature; Imagination – construction of ideas through ideas, Symbolism/Language – the formulation of ideas themselves, and Self/Consciousness – the awareness of these processes (which leads him to attribute these processes to his own being).

 
He seeks IT/Divinity/Mother because he realizes that there is something outside of him that he needs, that can not be freely taken; the metaphor often given is that of the mother’s breast. If man was complete in all that he needed, he would be Conscious/United Divinity. Instead, he is conscious only of his humanity, and must Work to be conscious of his Divinity. This is the same Fall within Creation itself, happening as each man becomes conscious of his consciousness; every man being a “split subject” due to the gap in his mind between his consciousness and the unconscious. His drive to unite with his Mother/Divinity itself is synonymous with seeking to be conscious of his unconscious. This essential drive is the same with all man, manifested through forms that are more or less obvious, depending upon the amount of transitions (and the success/failures thereof) that each individual has had to make (due to environmental circumstances).

 
The psychological metaphor continues with the child, witnessing his father receiving the love he seeks from the Mother, aiming to become his father – but can never get close enough due to two things: Castration fear, which occurs when there is a threat to man’s self-concept of himself (in this case, being too similar to his father, or recognizing that he will never succeed), and the father’s Law, which bans incest with the mother and provides the child with his first ethical code of “good” and “evil.” The Mother, whom is fulfilled as Mother once she bears a child, does not “need” him anymore; she may desire him, but this is an excess of need in which there is no satisfaction. Only in parting with the child may she find joy.

 
Usually, the child grows to incorporate society’s laws and ethics into his Law and seeks more or less obvious replacements of affection from his Mother. This continues throughout adulthood, but the pattern remains the same. The individual adapts his self-concept (which includes both the influence from his Law and his drive for acknowledgment/affection) accordingly as situations change.

 
Notice how the father’s Law has created such a strong repulsion in our society to the idea of incest, even with people that don’t concern us, and even if their relations are consensual. We are perceiving ourselves in their situations through the eyes of our own biased ethical codes.

 
It is an instinctual disgust reaction for every individual to think sexually of their own parents for physical, evolutionary reasons – but this is NOT to be confused with the psychological “incestuous” drive to replace our parents with our partners (and ourselves) which is absolutely natural and should not bring shame. Anyone who believes otherwise will be sorely disappointed once they realize that life is centered around these concepts and that they can only keep replacing the language with which these concepts are described. Sexuality in the New Aeon should be accepting of consensual roleplay regarding parental figures and children; the acknowledgement of the origin of this taboo and the exploration of it is progress to understanding ourselves and of Divinity.

 
The separation in man’s consciousness bringing forth his self-concept/ego, is the key to uniting with Divinity. Both the process of it coming into being, and the being itself is the cycle of Creation; man’s ego is as man is to God. The man who rids of his ego for any period of time is not “knowing God” but becomes God’s Knowing. God Knowing Himself; “God is God only insofar as he knows himself; but in addition his self-knowledge is the self-knowledge that he has as man; and the knowledge that he has of himself as God.” It is in these moments (gnosis) in between Creating a new self-concept/ego and having a previously constructed one “die” that God is God – with every change we make to our self-concept, we are God. “The eye with which God sees me is the eye with which I see Him; my eye and His eye are one and the same. In righteousness I am weighed in God and He in me. If God did not exist nor would I; if I did not exist, nor would He.” This means, in a man without a self-concept/ego, there exists neither ego (obviously) nor “man” – for the concept of this man as a man is included in his ego.

 
The Great Work is creating a space for the individual (God) to Know Himself, so that the individual may then align his self-concept to his unconscious, attaining joy. Joy is not a fixed destination, but the result of continually acting upon drives which leads us to break our consciousness/self-concept. The drives of man are only Qliphotic in nature when they are not balanced, which lead to desire. Desires are drives that have been bound in forms/ideas, further removed from the unconscious and more elaborate due to the mind’s use of language in communicating them to oneself. Both drives and desires arise from an excess of need/demand; that which we “need” is merely that which can be satisfied. By expressing our need in language, it becomes a demand. The greatest desire of every individual is for another to acknowledge their desire; the Mother to imagine what she could be/do to make her son happy. What the magician is doing when he re-creates his self-concept, is acknowledging his own desires, ridding of the excess (therefore “eliminating” desire/transforming it into need), and fixing his Law in order to fulfill his needs.

 
True Will, therefore, is a drive within our unconscious minds with many forms, the form which surfaces depending upon each individual, and receives a ranking of necessity based on past experiences (and neuroses). Once achieved, one’s True Will “changes” to a form more directly related to the drive in the unconscious.

 
In conclusion, the True Will of every man is ultimately to unite his consciousness with his own unconscious mind; the Great Work itself that is eternal – and every man having the burden/blessing of a divided consciousness knowingly or unknowingly seeks to fill this gap, for God’s own existence.

Sorrow & Creation

And now, a brief essay in four parts on the continuation of Sorrow through the vicarious curiosity of the Martian rover Curiosity, whom celebrates the most loneliest birthday in the galaxy every year by singing itself “Happy Birthday.”

  1. Why this is so sad: It is the ultimate metaphor for a being/creation abandoned by its god/creator. To make things worse, there are only a small number of these creations, all placed far apart from one another, and all there with a job from their creator. All they have is a job in a world full of loneliness. What a selfish god!
  2. Why this should not be sad: The creation is neither separate from the creator nor the materials of the creation. We, too all have a “job from our creators:” and this is True Will. True Will is also one with the creator and the materials of his creation. It is a cycle without sorrow so long as we are consciously part of creation/the creator/the materials of creation.
  3. Why is this so sad to me: I, being human, identify as a creation with needs due to having been given consciousness–Love. The rover, having been programmed to sing itself “Happy Birthday,” implies a cruel joke on behalf of the creator; whom created the rover with the need of an acknowledgement of its existence (through a birthday song) but then subjects the rover with no hope of true acknowledgement–hence it sings the song to itself.
  4. Why this should not be sad to me: The rover, whom was built with love and sent with love but is not conscious, Knows Nuit without separation. It lives eternally in Joy, having never been separated from it. It has within it, Hadit which is synonymous with the creator, and is an extension of the Will of the creator. Is the concept of this rover so different from the disenfranchised masses of people everyday who question their creator, not Understanding that they have never been separated?

29. For I am divided for love’s sake, for the chance of union.
30. This is the creation of the world, that the pain of division is as nothing, and the joy of dissolution all.
31. For these fools of men and their woes care not thou at all! They feel little; what is, is balanced by weak joys; but ye are my chosen ones.

We are conscious and because of our consciousness, we believe we are separate from the universe. This illusion of separation is what brings all suffering. The answer to the question of why we are conscious instead of being like the rover, is because we are both creation (of the universe and ourselves) and creator (of ourselves and the universe).

“The Man delights in uniting with the Woman; the Woman in parting with the Child.”

The “Child” is like the rover, the “Woman” is the scientist, and the “Man” is just the scientist before he reached his potential to become a scientist.

In other words, the creation delights in uniting with the creator; the creator in parting with a “new” creation. This “new” creation, as the cycle continues, seeks to unite with its creator, and so on and so forth.

Antepenultimately, “creation” is only a word for Change. Humans are the result of a change in the universe, and we grow up to change ourselves and the universe.

Penultimately, “change” is only the appearance of change. Forms change, but the substance remains.
 
Ultimately, “substance” is the totality of existence, which includes non-existence.

27. …O Nuit, continuous one of Heaven, let it be ever thus; that men speak not of Thee as One but as None; and let them speak not of thee at all, since thou art continuous!
28. None, breathed the light, faint & faery, of the stars, and two.

Eternity


There comes times for everyone to re-examine habits/lack-thereof. 

The only way to, is to understand the benefits they bring, and then evaluate the ‘benefits’ themselves in relation to your personal life. 

Competition is distraction; as you are ultimately submitting to your own ego by trying to beat anothers’- comparison to one’s self to any other is subconsciously conforming to a set of illusory creeds, where the conclusion is the only obvious proposition- ‘I shall do x because y.’

Y, even if it’s something you yourself used to do, gives no necessary reason for what you ought to do; and if in correlation with what needs to be done for that moment, one ought to choose the action that brings forth the most joy, which requires the unattachment of emotion towards the act- the easiest option being something unfamiliar, and which there exists no previous conceptions to compare or compete with.

Life is suffering- but there is joy in death, which is change; and all things being subject to change, this is the only constant in which happiness lies. To look up upon Nuit, one sees Nothing; everything as matter with no constructed definitions to separate matter from matter. Where there is no difference, there is no-thing, and no need for the concept of change. Pure existence, infinite, and joyous.

Who opens the curtains and lets eternity in? The flame within that provides light to see with the Eye; the Eye sees the flame burning both in man and universe and cries an endless sea of mystery, mixture of joy and of suffering, having seen illusion and reality- the key to mystery is not to start over; it is the choice without the ‘should’ impulse; where you can only influence seekers to seek and must disregard those that have surpassed you.

The Spirals of Life


1. One Abyss experience is enough, given it was a deep enough experience. Life being a spiral, the Crossing of the Abyss is the full cycle of the first spiral of one’s life – after it has been done, you are already familiar with the spiral, therefore you never stop spiraling. People who never Cross are always held in a closed circuit loop; they may at times rise higher, but only an Abyssal experience breaks them out of the loop permanently. Similarly, those who have Crossed sometimes dip back down, but already have the momentum of their attainments to rise back up and keep spiraling. (By “spiral” I mean coming back to the same points in life, but each time around, you gain a higher understanding that changes your being and adapts for the better).

2. Nostalgia is important, not only because you can learn from the memories that arise in dreams, but you can also reflect back upon your life. This seems rather obvious and simple. By following True Will, you are activating the forces which lead you to spiral/Cross. I look back on my life and there were many times where I can say, “I could have been happy there.” And it wasn’t even that I wasn’t happy at that time – I just trusted in my HGA and as it turns out, I became happier. Not because I ended up in a different place, but because of my experiences to get there. It is not until anyone goes anywhere that they realize just how happy or unhappy they were to begin with. So I thought to myself, what happens if in years after my journey in magick I find myself wanting to have never begun, i.e. that I had made the mistake of leaving that first point – the thing is, this is the true meaning of “happiness is a journey, not a destination.” And this stupid little saying often repeated flies in one ear and out the other of the people who claim to accept it but have never left their happy places in fear. It takes work.

3. Nobody “gets anywhere” in magick, (in conclusion of numbers 1&2) and the point against syncretism is this: too many people are trying to mutate things, not leaving enough time for themselves or others to fully explore each facet. These mutations are best left for the individual, in Silence, since they are what it’s actually for. It’s just mixed in with the aim of seeking recognition for self/one’s work, which is an ego-want, but one best sought out in terms of personal relationships. Not the world which is already muddy with ill-informed theories.

Thaumaturgy & Theurgy


All magick performed intently brings forth change; the results of thaumaturgical workings usually either aiding in confidence of oneself or skepticism towards the efficacy of magick. A balance must be sought between believing in oneself and having faith in magick, regardless of the history of one’s workings (fails or successes). To the ceremonial magickian, there is no difference between oneself and magick, and the success/failures of his thaumaturgy only aids in recognising and appreciating the forces of Being, which to some degree will always be unknowable to the practitioner.

“For pure will, unassuaged of purpose, delivered from the lust of result, is in every way perfect.”

By detaching one’s intentions for results, and accepting magick as just an exercise of one’s Will, the magickian always succeeds–he is closer to union with God by means of uniting his own forces within himself.

“That is to say, in order to perform his miracle, [the Magician] must call forth his own God in the Microcosm. That is united with the God of the Macrocosm by its likeness to it; and the Macrocosmic force then operates in the Universe without as the Magician has made it operate within himself; the miracle happens.”

Silence is a power because by the unintentional limitations of language, if one were to speak about his Work, he sets forth in his mind the idea that he is the cause of magick; the balance is shifted between Knowing and Understanding, and as a result, feeds his ego too much. Similarly, if he were to speak about his Work without attributing himself, he subconsciously becomes aware of the idea that perhaps he did not do anything, as it could have all been coincidence, and his faith in himself/magick is decreased.

There is nothing intrinsically wrong about speaking of magick–Silence is simply a way of preserving the authenticity of one’s Understandings. If among those with similar Understandings, there is no such consequence so long as the magickian keeps the balance of faith/confidence for himself.

It is true that performing Theurgy/Great Work is all one needs to be satisfied, however if one is already aware of and is working in alignment with his Will, all acts, even thaumaturgical workings, are the Great Work. Part of the Work is always keeping one’s ego under Will, and accepting responsibility for what one strives for.