Since November, a series of strange but fortunate events have followed. How to explain the details of the Abramelin Operation is beyond me. But my experiences I will now henceforth explain, slowly, over the course of many blog posts.

First, spelling during the Operation external is defunct while internally I am working hard to achieve the proper syntax in a sentence structure.

The formula by which one operates from dictates the pattern of sat-ananda-chit which revolves at each ticking of the clock. Freudian slips are therefore sometimes useful indicators of a positive attitude towards the acceptance of one’s own limitations. When, for instance, an individual blushes, at first glance we interpret embarrassment — not towards any one thing or another, for at that moment of apparition, the seed of the embarrassment is not conscious to the one blushing.

Time, therefore, is and always has been but a measurement of change.

Change, I have written about, to be understood in connection to the Major Arcana:

0. The ends justify the means, but the ends have no ends! The means justify the ends, but the ends don’t exist anymore.

I. Both the ends and the means justify the ends; every means being an end in itself.

II. For the assimilation of theurgy & thaumaturgy, just like the ends and the means, the practitioner must perform every act of thaumaturgy for the sake of theurgy.

III. The nature of theurgy expediates and burns the karma of the practitioner, from which thaumaturgy are his tools and in union with natural forces; he himself is a vector of the macrocosmic will while simultaneously affecting the macrocosmic will from his vector as microcosmic will.

IV. The theurgist, whose microcosmic capacity in his limited lifetime and physical manifestation of macrocosmic will is restricted to his lifetime and physical manifestation of macrocosmic will, is prone to an early physical death.

  1. His macrocosmic work as this restricted manifestation has a limit which propels his being (which has been solve-d and coagula-ed in the form of the white lion and red eagle; his sulfur = his mercury; his soul/spirit has actually reached Nirvana/Moksha and it is his salt which must now transmute) to be reborn.
  2. His microcosmic work/the imprint of his being is reincarnated and scattered among the universe in order to progress the Aeon, and aid the macrocosmic will.
  3. What happens to his salt, or physical body, involves a three-in-one collaboration (for salt is divided into three parts unto itself: Heaven, Earth, and the Firmament in which the operation of the Magick of Light may be performed).

V. Enlightened theurgists, therefore both reincarnate and reach Nirvana; the theurgist’s microcosmic will (which is not separated from his soul/spirit), has reached peace in the macrocosmic will – but part of the macrocosmic will is for the reincarnation of microcosmic wills.

VI. To avoid an early physical death as a theurgist, there are two options – doing magick really slowly or retire in magick and utilize prayer.
VII. Prayer is the disconnecting and surrendering of the microcosmic will entirely as a part for the microcosmic will. He is throned in the chariot rather than conducting it, because the whole system of progression is perfectly balanced. (As opposed to magick being the interplay between microcosmic and macrocosmic will; it is a rhythm of active/passive for both – conducting and riding).

VIII. Time stops during prayer; time speeds up with magick. Magi who retire to seemingly exoteric religions are not doing so for the idea of salvation, but for equilibration of micro/macrocosmic will.

IX. These magi usually withdraw from their “normal lives” and seem to have abandoned the Great Work entirely – when in fact they have become the Word/universal will, unspoken and secret.

X. His fate is now incalculable; luck is the remnant of design and all that he can witness is the design.

XI. (This is the part where Faust chases and sleeps with Gretchen; his moment of transcendence that seals over his fate to Mephistopheles. In the movie, this is the part where Faust seduces and sleeps with the life-sized puppet of Helen of Troy, before he finds out it was Mephisto in disguise. The macrocosmic seed/Word has been spoken, impregnating the Scarlet Woman with the Will of the Aeon.) The magus’s fate is sealed once more in the promulgation of his microcosmic will, and the clock resumes ticking.

XII. (Faust’s newly acquired despair & the infanticide of their child by Gretchen; in the movie being the drowning of the Court because they didn’t like his magick powers).

XIII. The magus/theurgist/practitioner dies for the “last” time, his clock having run out.

XIV. The art of dying consists of: one’s mind separating from one’s body, while the individual’s soul (cardinal, or sulfuric component) ignites a carefully and well-planned combustion within the firmament to unite the two halves of the alchemical being.

XV. This alchemical being, being part beast, will appear in a variety of forms, both animal, human, and divine.

XVI. The true form of oneself appears only when all said forms are assimilated and then rejected, for any attachment to the image results in the death of yet another aspect of self.

XVII. Thus consecrated, the purification of the spirit, soul, and body as one occurs.

XVIII. The shadow of the consecrated and purified individual must be tamed and integrated with the proper amount of tender loving care from the right sources; “look to the moon until you can see the sun.”

XIX. “There is no dread hereafter . . .”

XX. Everything changes after the rejoicing of both Night and Day.

XXI. This change is the birth of a universe of ideas.

Ancestral Veneration 

I have decided that there must be reconciliation for the current concept of the individual regarding the death of the many parts of himself in this life. I believe in reincarnation in regards to parts of the soul which need it, and that this happens on a microcosmic scale while we are living. After all, the Invokation of the “Bornless” (Head-less) One before the evokation of the Goetia is a bringing forth of the archetype of the “be-headed” King and Queen in the Chymical Wedding, of the myth of Osiris, etc. This is an archetype of the Higher Self, the HGA which commands the “dead” parts of us (shells of the personal unconscious, spirits of the Goetia) to rise and be guided under Will. There appears a literal connection to these ideas and that of the old depictions of Atu XX; the dead rising from their tombs and are given eternal life.

I’ve looked forward so much that I seem to have forgotten how I got here. There is an undeniable aspect of energy in ancestral workings (harnessed primarily for thaumaturgical purposes) but albeit powerful and has been dominant throughout the centuries.

To the theurgist, although all parts of the self end up in Sheol, they are either resurrected for the purposes of the Great Work, or abide as Qliphotic aspects of self which must continue to be rectified–both for our sake, and “theirs.” It is interesting that by understanding the microcosm in this manner, we understand that these aspects of our self contain in themselves a type of base consciousness; a persistence to exist and stubborness to attempt to avoid change or the death of itself.

This is essentially what our individual manifestations are to the macrocosm.

The aspects of self which are “righteous” i.e. in alignment with the True Will of the Individual, having been resurrected, can be interpreted to be living in Heaven/the Supernals/in Harmony with the All.

When we venerate our ancestors, we are acknowledging the continuation of the cycle and drawing forth all the energy of the transformations they’ve made throughout time, feeling the energy of the All propelling us forth into the Light. Therefore any progress made in the present is never ours, nor our ancestors, but the permutation of the One. 

I.N.R.I. Easter Edition


This is the Holy Hexagram.
Plunge from the height, O God, and interlock with Man!
Plunge from the height, O Man, and interlock with Beast!
The Red Triangle is the desceding tongue of grade;
the Blue Triangle is the ascending tongue of prayer.
This Interchange, the Double Gift of Tongues, the
Word of Double Power—ABRAHADABRA!—is
the sign of the GREAT WORK, for the GREAT WORK is accomplished in Silence. And behold is
not that Word equal to Cheth, that is Cancer,
whose Sigil is [Cancer]?
This Work also eats up itself, accomplishes its own
end, nourishes the worker, leaves no seed, is perfect in itself.

Little children, love one another!

In the spirit of Easter, Christian mysticism, the alchemical/Qabalistic formula of I.N.R.I, and the late-night rereading of Wake World, I’ve decided to write this brief essay:

I. N. R. I. = Yod – Nun – Resh – Yod
= Igne Natura Renovatur Integra.
“Through fire, nature is reborn whole.”

I, Yod, Igne; 10. Hand (which brings forth the seed), Fire (which manifests as Will), Virgo/Isis/Mighty Mother, “Yod = Phallus = Spermatozoon = Hand = Logos = Virgin.” IX. The Hermit. Partzuf of ChKMH-73.

N, Nun, Natura; 50. Fish (seed which swims in the Womb, the Serpent, the Vesica), Scorpio/Apophis/Destroyer, XIII. Death, the alchemical stage of putrefaction, earth/nature/the natural process.

R, Resh, Renovatur; 200. Sun (Son, Light-Bringer/Lucifer), Sol/Osiris/Slain & Risen, Renewal, XIX. The Sun. Partzuf of TPART-1,081.

I, (Same as above), Integra; the integration, completion, wholeness of.

The “three days” it takes YHShVH to “rise from the dead” I think, is symbolic of the three paths Nun, Samekh, and Ayin, which pass the Veil of PRKTh. The vision of TPART from MLKVT through the Veil is of the misunderstood Pan Pangenetor, (causing people mixing up Lucifer for “Satan).”

It was midnight and the Devil came down and sat in the midst; but my Fairy Prince whispered: ‘Hush! it is a great secret, but his name is YHShVH, and he is the Saviour of the World. (Via ayin v. Oculus).

Using Lola Daydream as my Jesus today – she begins as Yod; the Virgin of the Universe/the path of the Hermit, having come forth through the Eye/Ayin, the path of the Devil. Nun is the attributed path of Death. Resh, instead of the path of Resh, is the sephira TPART, the tomb of C. Rosenkreuz, and the last Yod symbolizing this entire alchemical process (Integra), the path of Samekh, and also the momentum of her progress upwards toward divinity, or in this case the momentum to complete the circle/rose drawn with the cross in the Rosy Cross Ritual, meeting the Devil once more but without the Veil; K&C of the HGA.

In this process is also the LAShTAL formula; before beginning the circle a little after the path of The Hermit, this is only made possible from the powers of LA/potential, symbolized here by Atu VIII. Adjustment. Shin-Teth is the entire motion, its attributions relating to Resh and Nun. AL is both the Devil and the HGA – Fire & Completion.
The formula T.A.R.O., if drawn according to the paths of the Tree of Life in front of you, makes a huge spiral in the opposite direction, encompassing the circle from the paths around TPART which not only appear to balance each other out, but T.A.R.O. being LVX in extension, (extension which shines through the Eye/Ayin in combination with Adjustment) sets up Lola’s “three-day” resurrection.

So never mind! let me go on. We came by and by to the Sixth House. I forgot to say that all those three paths were really one, because they all meant that things were different inside to outside, and so people couldn’t judge. (Domus VI v. Pulchritudo).