Hate Sex


I BRUISED your body with the whip
Its wheals stand out in ridgéd azure.
The savage blood upon your lip
Images hurt, and hurt’s erasure.

The pain transmuted into passion;
And passion.s ruin was not pain;
But my pain wears another fashion;
My dead men do not rise again.

You hurt me, and the silent skin
Whispers no word of bleeding bruises;
Your subtle hate, your cunning skin
Brands and corrodes me where it chooses

I fear not them that kill the body,
But rather them that hurt the soul:
My soul with your disdain is bloody;
Your stripes are none to make me whole.

Could you but see my vitals torn,
My nerves on rack, my tortured spirit.
Of all the ills to mortals born
This is the sorest to inherit.

If you could see the branded token
Of your invisible whip, the scars
Of your intangible knife, the unspoken
Agonies, silent as the stars!

Then you should count the agéd lines
That wrinkle up my boy’s blithe beauty:.
The Judge of all the Earth divines
My wrongs and yours, and does his duty.

For you in heaven shall bloom and burgeon,
And I in hell shall howl and groan.
Ah! God is an unskilful surgeon;
We both shall weep to be alone!

For we are one and may not part;
And though we hurt, we love, believe me!
Nor would I in my inmost heart
Of one of all your stabs bereave me.

No man can hurt the indifferent stranger,
No woman wound the casual friend.
There is a glory born of danger;
What anger gat, desire may end.

Give me the phrenzy of your lip!
My heart accepts your usurpature.
Your body leaps beneath the whip;
Our pain is in love’s very nature.

It is enough. The woe is over,
The woe begins; the vial brims,
And all the anguish of your lover
And you is hidden in wrestling limbs.

Drain the black cup of bruiséd blood!
Its bitter shall beget devotion,
And Bacchus sweep its frenzied flood
Into the Eleusinian ocean!

Elaboration upon the dualities of Love and Hate:

These two emotions are not actually opposites in the normal sense, since the opposite of both love and hate are indifference; both love and hate are on the extreme end of the emotional scale itself. Love is the acknowledgement and acceptance of both parts Beast/Babalon within another person. It is a constant balancing effort on both parts within the self, and with another, which if genuine, is the perfect balance of pleasure for the ego/Beast and non-ego/Babalon. Hence, Love under Will. Hate occurs when there is an imbalance; if regarding the Beast/Babalon within one’s self, this hate is directed inwards. When there is an imbalance regarding another person, this hate is directed at them. Most people will react in anger, perhaps even hate, towards the external trigger which does not do anything but show the internal imbalance there was, prior to the trigger. If there was no imbalance present, there would not have been any defensive reaction.

“Love” and “hate” both require some level of attachment to that which is the target of our emotions. The difference being that Love contains both the Will to Live/Dove/henosis/(development of Babalon and self-sacrifice of the Beast in order to accept another’s Beast) and the Will to Die/Serpent/apotheosis/(development of Beast and suppression of Babalon in order to be consumed by another’s Babalon).

Hate directed at a person drives us to get away from them as far as possible, because the nature of the Beast is fueled by ego. It is undesirable for a sensitive/developed ego to be poked at; more specifically, the individual’s ego is recognizing itself in another, and attempting to compete. If given a worthy enough challenge, the ego will either be required to submit (die) or recognize the futility of its efforts and also die. There is nothing more provoking nor fearful for the ego than the death of itself. Therefore, external hate usually occurs if one person’s Will to Die comes into conflict with another’s Will to Die. Beast vs Beast. A forced reflection upon the ego where the only escape is death either way–the progression into the Right Hand Path for balance.

Hate which occurs internally is due to a misalignment in Will and Action; this is usually due to external oppression of the individual’s Beast, which leads the ego to attack itself. It is not a true development of one’s Babalon, and the individual will most likely require a lot of Left Hand Path workings before finding his/her way to achieve balance.

The nature of sex is always an interplay of the permutations between Beast and Babalon, and results in death. From these two dynamics also comes an odd mixture of pleasure: the Babalon in one person gets along with the Babalon with another; the nature of Babalon/Nuit is passive, accepting, and all-encompassing. If two people are Babalon-dominant, there is no need for sex. Metaphorically speaking, they are neither alive nor dead and therefore have no inclination to die. This is why it is important to emphasize that Babalon =/= women and Beast =/= men. When two women have sex, they either take turns unleashing their Beast, or one woman has a inclination towards Beast, and the other towards Babalon. However, when two separate (worthy and equal) Beasts meet and are unable to escape, they will fight and suffer–but also seek to die together; in other words, they have hate-sex. There comes a time when both see the futility of their actions and decide that the only way to achieve joy together is to surrender together.

The frustration that arises with any energy-expending battle can easily be transformed into sexual tension. The attraction is not always due to physical appearance, since the attraction itself is from the fact that both Beasts have been forced to surrender, causing them to seek each other for pleasure.

Usually, hate-sex happens when one Beast is able to recognize the power of the other, or in momentary stalemates instead of the end of the battle. The acknowledgement of one Beast from another is what is labeled “sexy;” it is the awareness that the other person has within them, the potential to kill the individual’s ego. Nowadays, society has brainwashed people into accepting an image/form of what’s sexy, causing a reinforcement loop within their minds so concrete that when one asks someone what they believe to be sexy, they can only explain through prescribed imagery. Prescribed imagery, if never questioned, will never allow the individual to see beyond their social accretions.


Dona Virginis


[ Waxing Cresent ] The first day, a camel;
The second day, a kiss;
The third daty, a star-glass;
The fourth day, a beetle’s wing;
The fifth day, a crab;
[ 1st Quarter-Moon ] The sixth day, a bow;
The seventh day, a quiver;
The eighth day, a stag;
The ninth day, an horn;
The tenth day, a sandal of silver;
The eleventh day, a silver box of white sandal wood;
The twelfth day, a whisper;
[ Full ] The thirteenth day, a black cat;
[ Full ] The fourteenth day, a phial of white gold;
[ Full] The fifteenth day, an egg-shell cut in two;
The sixteenth day, a glance;
The seventeenth day, an honeycomb;
The eighteenth day, a dream;
The nineteenth day, a nightmare;
The twentieth day, a wolf, black-muzzled;
[ 2nd Quarter-Moon/Period Begins ] The twenty-first day, a sorrow;
The twenty-second day, a bundle of herbs;
The twenty-third day, a piece of camphor;
The twenty-fourth day, a moonstone;
The twenty-fifth day, a sigh;
[ Waning Cresent ] The twenty-sixth day, a refusal;
[ New Moon/End of Period ]The twenty-seventh day, a consent ; and the last night she gave him all herself, so that the moon was eclipsed and earth was utterly darkened.

“In the Mystery of the Serpent and the Lion, the mixing of the Vaginal fluid and the Semen is the moment of communion and the Eucharist is created. Each night of the Moon offers a different Kala which will flavor the magick. 14 for the Waxing, 14 for the Waning. Orb of the Full Moon (3 nights) for Creation, Orb of the New Moon for Destruction. One for the Talisman, the other for the Amulet. The wise know the difference.”

Making Peace With Genders

The student of Thelema often jumps to the conclusion that they are hermaphroditic in thought, similar to disregarding the orthodox understandings of True Will before they seek to find their True Will. It serves no practical use for the aspirant to perceive himself as Baphomet before understanding the nature and powers of his own being. Hidden within his/her subconscious mind are often repressed emotions regarding the gender and sexual orientation he/she was prescribed early in childhood.

In objective reality there is no difference and this is made clear; every man and every woman is a star.

Within every star, there lies the same structure representing different parts of the mind and higher self; Man and Scarlet Woman reside in the ruach, their relationship symbolic of the self receving unconditional love and Desire from parents and learning how to exercise his/her reason from external experience, resulting in ethical understanding and Splendour from his environment. Both are equally complimentary, although presenting the first representative interplay of active/passive roles within the self. His/her Desire motivates his/her reason, and similarly his/her reason allows his/her growth of Splendour. The HGA at this developmental stage is still hidden to the student; the ego is what mediates the id and the superego.

With the transcendence beyond the Veil of Paroketh within the self comes also the chance for selection. The Beast is the conscious mind that contains the potential to select, block, and filter that which it seeks to manifest, hence his relation to Chaos. Babalon is the subconscious mind which has the potential to attract that which the Beast selects, given he has not constricted it himself with lust of result. She “gives her love freely to all men” meaning she is neutral in preference to all goals of the Beast. That which the conscious mind represses will seep into the subconscious, giving the appearance of Babalon as the source of emotion, the feminine aspect in life. 

Here is where the mundane man/woman receives the first mystery concerning the work of magick. If he/she is to exercise too much reason (666/2) then he/she inadvertently constricts the subconscious mind by anticipation, and his/her goal will not manifest until he/she de-localizes his/her mind by use of the Universal Solvent; gnosis. After he/she acquires Knowledge and Conversation with his/her HGA, True Will becomes the mediator between these two aspects of self.

The ultimate Joy is in the Beast’s surrender into Babalon; and this is portrayed by a man’s absolute trust and fragility towards his partner, she in accepting and loving him regardless of any and all accretions. She allows his Joy, and His Joy becomes Hers.

Although we are all one part Beast and one part Babalon, it is so often overlooked to acknowledge the reality of one’s own biological sex. It is self-evident that in reality there are two sexes but there are now a wider selection of genders. All genders and its prescribed sexual orientations are the result of social programming, unnatural but are deeply rooted in the ego due to early psychological reinforcement. The male is encouraged to perceive himself as a man, and the female is encouraged to perceive herself as a woman, which then leads to social prescribed sexual orientations. This is why it is difficult to strip the ego and our identification with gender. In order to achieve Knowledge and Conversation of the HGA, one must refine the ego by stripping it of all accretions and self-concepts. It is also dangeous to assume the position of absolute gender neutrality before taking the steps to resolve any subconscious restrictions that may arise during the Work.

It then becomes crucial to the development of True Will to surrender the ego–firstly by accepting the sex you were born with and its socially reinforced gender-roles and sexual orientation, second by understanding and embodying that function using the system of Thelema.

A man (that identifies with his biological sex) should strive to develop his Beast to find union with Babalon, and a woman (that identifies with her biological sex) should learn to surrender her Beast to embody Babalon.

The Thelemic structure of having Therion/Babalon, Hadit/Nuit is therefore clearly useful in utilizing the fundamental roles attributed to the two sexes. The goal of the aspirant therefore, is to transmute the societal gender roles into these transcendental Thelemic associations, firstly for Man and Scarlet Woman, to Beast and Babalon, whereby they can unite in Joy and also come to understand both these functions within themselves as Hadit/Nuit combined in Baphomet.

I:29. For I am divided for love’s sake, for the chance of union.

As society stands today, with the exceptions of few, man has yet to overcome his ego by relinquishing his concept of power, and women cannot yet allow themselves to love freely outside the bounds of social reinforcement.

These are the natural steps to acknowledge and eliminate the parts of the ego which have arisen from society’s gender accretions. It is pseudo-Thelemic to ignore this simple fact of society. We do not yet live in a society where complete gender-fluidity is accepted by all and therefore will be subjected to labeling based upon physical appearance, which then influences our psyche whether we are conscious of it or not. We are born and programmed by gender regardless of how hermaphroditic we may consider our thoughts. Only once the Thelemite has been absolved and united by his own forces, can he/she then decide which mask of self to reveal to the world as a King.

II:58. Yea! deem not of change: ye shall be as ye are, & not other. Therefore the kings of the earth shall be Kings for ever: the slaves shall serve. There is none that shall be cast down or lifted up: all is ever as it was. Yet there are masked ones my servants: it may be that yonder beggar is a King. A King may choose his garment as he will: there is no certain test: but a beggar cannot hide his poverty.