Comparisons

“Comparison is toxic; competition is healthy.”


Comparison, being the competition of the image of self (ego, as a conception to oneself is only able to be perceived through the perceived ego of another) with another image of self (other) through the former image’s perception; Competition being the comparison of the work done from the ego and another (other), ultimately inseparable from the ego(s), but more detached and objective – therefore results in a smaller chance of hurt to one’s ego.

If an individual’s image of self is constructed from the perspective of more than one ego (insert any arbitrary group-mind construct), any perceived injustices done against this group affects the image of self. Although this is a good step towards constructing one’s own ego from the perspective of the universe/singularity (in other words uniting subject with object); one cannot stagnate in any gradient of this scale. Oftentimes an individual whom has done a fairly good job of uniting their subject with object, forgets how to perceive themselves through group-constructs and so on.. concluding that they are the most unique snowflake in the world, belonging everywhere and therefore belonging nowhere.

This is rather tedious to type up as the nature of the ego has been covered time and time again in journal posts and essays, ironically, further supporting the necessity of switching one’s perspective by its cardinal/quintessental reference (the other).

Unfortunately, the more often positive feedback is perceived to characterize any given group-construct, the easier it is for the ego to keep using this construct to define itself, supporting the illusion of the ego and using the group-construct to reinforce it.

Group-constructs, and social constructs in general, all have their basis in the most fundamental appearances of nature. Hence the ego’s quick denial of the inexistence of itself – it identifies with a construct and because of the internal logic supporting the existence of this construct in nature, assumes that its existence is self-evident due to its selfness perceiving the evident connection between itself and nature.

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True Fear & True Love

A jealous god is a feared god, and I see now the relation between True Fear and True Love. These dualities apply to the dualities of the ego and non-ego; the contradiction occurs in the minds of those who, because of fear cannot face fear and cannot move past towards love.

Exodus 20:4-5. “You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God…”

I:51. “…Also, take your fill and will of love as ye will, when, and with whom ye will! But always unto me.
52. If this be not aright; if ye confound the space-marks saying: They are one; or saying, They are many; if the ritual be not ever unto me: then expect the direful judgments of Ra Hoor Khuit!”

“Jealousy,” and “direful judgments” all directly address the individual’s ego, and are not to be mistaken as corresponding to the non-ego/Higher self/HGA/God. (The latter obviously does not apply; the non-ego is devoid of ego/judgment/jealousy). The individual’s ego fears retribution from an external “higher power,” whether it is a parent when one is young, society, societal laws, deities, etc.; but what it is actually fearing is the Union with the Higher self/HGA/God within them, once again, because the ego knows it must submit.

The psychological process that occurs (usually when dealing with the monotheistic God) is opposite to Identifying-Objectifying-Banishing a demon/aspect of ego. Here, what is occuring is the automatic ego Objectification (of the HGA into external deities)-Avoidance (denial of external deities)- Incomprehension (of what was actually the issue).

The declaration of any given god to appear ego-full and not just ego-less, therefore, either causes the individual to react with more Mercy, or to Objectify-Avoid-Incomprehend the issue. (Then again, all attacks against the ego can invoke this response.) The individual who is aware that they feel fear regardless of how ludicrous the stimulus (like words on paper from a god), is then given the chance to be honest and inquire within themselves; if they feel fear, there is something to be afraid of (a higher power); and there is something that is feeling the fear (their ego). This is also the function of the Tunis Comment.

The appearance of contradiction in an ego-full and ego-less God have been elaborated upon: when you Love everyone, you hate everyone. Love supersedes all facets of the projection of existence. The individual whom accepts God’s Love sees no contradiction between his jealousy and his Love. One understands that this jealousy is merely an attack upon the individual’s ego, and it is only the ego whom acknowledges this jealousy.

Compassion for Self and Others

The ego shards, and the shells of the qliphoth, too must be nourished properly in order to protect the spheres. The process of alchemy is never a straight path; one must return again and again to refine the salt, and the same must be done with the shells. It is ALWAYS balance. To seek compassion for one’s ego is not negative, in and of itself. Like all things, context is what defines the proper means and ends.

Not everyone needs the same treatment, and the idea of treating everyone equally does not mean treat everyone the same. Some people need more love, and some appreciate harder challenges. 
Acting under Will requires that we think and make careful judgments about how we treat others. The shells need LVX just as the spheres do. The only evil comes from imbalance. Pathworking requires both the stripping of aspects of the ego and proper nourishment to purify the ego.

Truth and What It Isn’t


There is essentially no “righteous job” to correct those who don’t seek correcting. There is no “duty towards truth,” for truth is never what we can conceive of. That is just unnecessary validation for the ego by the ego.

The ego is purified through the mirror image of the other; the other is any other ego which it sees itself in. 

Therefore, validation from the other can purify the ego the same way as it can trap it. Friendly reaction is a good sign so long as no attachment is made to the ego receiving praise – instead, it should be perceived as an acknowledgement that one is on the right path, and a reminder to tread carefully with each “gift” received.

Tolerance


We should always be grateful of every challenge to our egos that may come; it reminds us of the illusion of control we think we have.

 In this form it is but a liberation, and there can be no blame attributed to anybody but ourselves for not upkeeping the Work. And should we forfeit the Work, we also cannot blame anything external, since the scale of our limitations and capacity for Work-load depend upon how adjusted we are to the Work itself. In neither of these instances can there be blame cast upon Nature or Life itself; and also because the nature of our existence is also Nature, and Nature cannot/does not blame us for our limitations.

Stubborn people are in most cases, the greatest blessings because they are so insufferable; to the mutable individual, they can learn a lot about themselves and the world by being subjected to the frustration of dealing with these people (and they are given all the time in the world to, since stubborn people rarely change their minds). 

There is absolutely no obligation to help the fixed be mutable. They are unfit for the Work, and this is all part of Universal Will. Each star is and can only be responsible for himself. Thus, if there be success, he will understand that he, as a star is both One with None and One with Many.

II:21. “We have nothing with the outcast and the unfit; let them die in their misery. For they feel not. Compassion is the vice of kings: stamp down the wretched & the weak: this is the law of the strong: this is our law and the joy of the world. Think not, o king, upon that lie: That Thou Must Die: verily thou shalt not die, but live. Now let it be understood: If the body of the King dissolve, he shall remain in pure ecstasy for ever. Nuit! Hadit! Ra-Hoor-Khuit! The Sun, Strength & Sight, Light; these are for the servants of the Star & the Snake.”

Responsibility


As children, we follow authority in order to avoid taking responsibility for our own actions. Responsibility is essentially the acknowledgement of the frailty of the ego and understanding its limitations; the reality of what things are or occur. What we conceive of things as the reflection of ourselves- the mirror exists, but the images don’t. They are eternally constructed by nature of the ego, and therefore will always be self-evident to the ego; infinite loops of self-reinforcement.

As teenagers learn more about the world through the lens of the self/ego, they begin to build different constructs; choosing authority according to these subconscious conceptions. They take responsibility for what they choose to- what they think is aligned with these conceptions.
Adults, not all too different from teenagers, have more specific societal pressures to weigh into their sense of self/ego, ultimately creating inner conflicts between past, ‘more free’ conceptions and the conceptions they’ve now ‘grown into.’

Failure to shift entirely into a paradigm results in an inaccurate understanding of both parts; past and future. There must be a complete dissolution before synthesis; otherwise how would you separate the essential parts from each whole?

Dirty compounds. Blaming the constructs is denial of responsibility. Furthermore, the misdirection of blame from ego to reflection is self-reinforcing, but creates an unseen need to deny the connection between ego and world; the death of the option of magick itself. Both its use and its existence.

Sadism & Masochism


To those who have not yet embraced Beauty, sadism is a projection of one’s own hurt ego unto others, in hope that others shall empathise and give compassion for their own sufferings. Masochism in those who have also not yet embraced Beauty however, are projecting a guilty conscience and seek redemption for their egos. Both passions are motivated in the goal of balance between desire and intellect; but without the subjective and very personal experience of understanding the difference between Self and ego, Will and want, a “guilty conscience” or the “reasonably justified aggression,” …these self-reinforced constructs become the only way to seek Compassion.

This is true of both practices consensually or non consensually. The difference between the two being, those that practice consensual sado/masochism usually decide to do so in order to minimise the extraneous (societal) consequences of their actions, whereas those who do not, sometimes are not conscious of their behaviour patterns or have been able to avoid facing negative consequences and therefore lack a consistent reinforcement of the results of their actions.

Those who find partners who enjoy sado/masochism and/or the switching of these roles can at times find Beauty from the reflection of this other–and from that point forward, want becomes Will, and Love is its projection. Sadism and masochism become secondary; alternatives for connection and the acknowledgement of another.

Sadism in its highest form, is the desire to witness the progress of others by empathy of one’s own ego-death; the unbalanced use of Strength to propel others across the Abyss.

Masochism in its highest form, is the desire to witness the similarity between one’s own ‘sadistic tendencies’ and these tendencies in others. By misjudgement of Compassion, one seeks to encourage Self-development in others so that they may rise towards Strength.

‘Sadistic and masochistic’ acts under Will, are an efficient way to rid oneself of guilt and societal accretions, which all arise from ego, regardless of a collective ego or personal one. Of course, all acts under Will can have neither positive nor negative connotations, for they are acts done for the sake of the acts themselves. To Understand and not judge (for who can we be judging but ourselves?) the desires of others can ultimately be synonymous with doing what thou Wilt; when thou Does, there is no ‘I’ to judge it. The ego becomes the manner in how one Does his/her Will, but no longer persuades one towards ‘wants,’ so long as the Work is being done.

Thaumaturgy & Theurgy


All magick performed intently brings forth change; the results of thaumaturgical workings usually either aiding in confidence of oneself or skepticism towards the efficacy of magick. A balance must be sought between believing in oneself and having faith in magick, regardless of the history of one’s workings (fails or successes). To the ceremonial magickian, there is no difference between oneself and magick, and the success/failures of his thaumaturgy only aids in recognising and appreciating the forces of Being, which to some degree will always be unknowable to the practitioner.

“For pure will, unassuaged of purpose, delivered from the lust of result, is in every way perfect.”

By detaching one’s intentions for results, and accepting magick as just an exercise of one’s Will, the magickian always succeeds–he is closer to union with God by means of uniting his own forces within himself.

“That is to say, in order to perform his miracle, [the Magician] must call forth his own God in the Microcosm. That is united with the God of the Macrocosm by its likeness to it; and the Macrocosmic force then operates in the Universe without as the Magician has made it operate within himself; the miracle happens.”

Silence is a power because by the unintentional limitations of language, if one were to speak about his Work, he sets forth in his mind the idea that he is the cause of magick; the balance is shifted between Knowing and Understanding, and as a result, feeds his ego too much. Similarly, if he were to speak about his Work without attributing himself, he subconsciously becomes aware of the idea that perhaps he did not do anything, as it could have all been coincidence, and his faith in himself/magick is decreased.

There is nothing intrinsically wrong about speaking of magick–Silence is simply a way of preserving the authenticity of one’s Understandings. If among those with similar Understandings, there is no such consequence so long as the magickian keeps the balance of faith/confidence for himself.

It is true that performing Theurgy/Great Work is all one needs to be satisfied, however if one is already aware of and is working in alignment with his Will, all acts, even thaumaturgical workings, are the Great Work. Part of the Work is always keeping one’s ego under Will, and accepting responsibility for what one strives for.